hermm.. where should i start?
its been a long long time i didn't update..
and i'm writing this to express my disappointment towards my friends which i truly appreciate them but they seems never..
today, 3 Apr 2010, my menses day..
and it hurts my stomach so much..
it makes me don't feel like eating n keep sleeping :'(
do nothing whole day...and even ate nth whole day..huh!
what makes me disappointed is..
they never care about me!!
if its them..i'll rush to their room and see whether they're ok or not..
try to help them if they are really not well..
but now its my time..
NOT EVEN SMS ME ASKING WHY I'M NOT GOING FOR DINNER!
NOT EVEN A SMS ASKING MY CONDITION!
really sad actually...
sometime.. i really feels that im stupid..
whatever i do.. i keep them as my priority..
but why do they treat me like that?
i thought i found my true friend here..
but im wrong.. totally wrong...
what mummy said is right..
im good and kind to all my friends..
but i'll never never had true friend..
either they'll betrayed or they'll only 利用 me..
none if them treat me as friend..
i started to believe this..
but nothing i can do..
its has become my habit in treating people good..
its hard for me to say no..
its hard for me not to think on their side..
its really hard..:'(
and it hurts myself deeply...
last week was a tough week..
three assignments need to pass up and
im the one who need to urge them to get it done.
ah yee's MSN msg makes me cried..
miss them a lot especially during hard times..
in short:
audit.. to reduce wasting time on this.. i urge them to finish it in few days..
fm.. copy paste edit and passed up -_-''
research.. sleepless night for consequently 3days.. and i done it for almost 70% when she keep hotel city-ing and do editing ONLY! don't feel like talking much on this.. haih..
conclusion:
it makes me nearly die..:'(
after passing up all the assignment on Wednesday..
skipped research lecture and went back hostel..
sleep from 3pm till 930pm..
>''< PIG!
then Thursday..
we went to treat ourselves in redbox..
singing from 1pm till 7pm..
smuggled McD inside :x
its happy! :D hope that can do it everyday..
BUT
that morning someone's mouth really bad!
scolded people whole morning..
destroyed people mood!
even biii cried for it..
can't she think before talk?
she's clever then how? no social experience!
p.s. at least buii n bii come find me.. at least i knew still gt them...
haih!
have to smug for final exam soon..
but till now i still havent start reading anything..
except SLEEPING! >''<
they all started to study ler..
ting chiu hsia! what are you doing?
\WAKE UP LAR! NO TIME ALREADY!
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!!!!
FB FB FB!!!!
i should stop complaining and start my work..
prawn can do it..
加油！加油! 加油!
